Want Everything All To Myself

I want my newborn's love all to myself
I was so proud and happy that he only cooed and smiled at me ^_^
Then he was doing it for my sister in law...
I felt so jealous, so I started to keep him to myself more...
I wanted to pick him up..
I wanted him to love only me ...
The twins don't love me, they don't care if I am around...
I felt I should have the baby's love all to myself...
Now he even cooes at my husband...
Makes me want to cry...
He is supposed to be all mine...
He is only supposed to want me...
He is supposed to rely on only me...

I am so needy for that love, I want to run away with him and keep him all to myself
I just want someone who NEEDS me, and who, if I wasn't there would not do well..
Man that sounds so weird and twisted >.<;;
I feel so useless so I cling to what little a role I can have... >.<;;