I Feel So Weak

Why do I get upset over such stupid stuff!
I want to be tougher...
I want to be thick skinned
Why do I get hurt so easily by words
Makes me want to cry
I shouldn't feel this way...
Why do I cry over such stupid things...
Over such stupid words...
Is it me being oversensitive
Or them being jerks...

I just want to curl up and die some days...
Other days I just want to punish myself...
I feel selfish for being hurt by these things...
And yet I fail at that too
I have never been able to cut myself successfully...

And then I am left with less then nothing...
I can't even punish myself properly
I can never do anything right...

And yet whenever I get upset
I always seem to be the one in the wrong
Why is it always me that is the one left apologizing?

It's why I want to sink into oblivion all the time...
;____;